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| we want revolution, girl-style nooooow |
[23 Oct 2009|08:40pm] |
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Suggestion: Put on bikini kill, thrash around, make yourself look hot, stop moping and get over it.
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| My mind is lingering on. . . |
[13 Oct 2009|03:26pm] |
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This song makes me want to have hot, uninhibited, passionate, wild crazy sex right now. I miss sleater-kinney.
My dear, look at my face, I've been waiting for you in the same old place.
I've got a long time for love.
Jewels could spill from my cup.
But it's all locked down, and I'm all locked up.
I've got a long time for love.
A woman is not a girl.
I could show you a thing or two.
I've got a long time for love.
Come on let's go to the mat.
Hit the floor honey, let's battle it out.
I've got a long time for love.
Slow moves and dirty tricks
Want it like you never have
Timing and tiger strength
Strategy will put you past
Show me your darkest side
And you better be my bloody match
C'mon let's play a game.
It won't hurt just say my name
I've got a long time for love.
Roll the dice, take your card.
Let's see if your number's up.
I got a long time for love.
Pony up and try and guess my hand, what have I learned from
experience?
I've got a long time for love.
Let's call it my royal flush, I can show you what to do with it.
I've got along time for love.
Slow moves and dirty tricks
Want it like you never have
Timing and tiger strength
Strategy will put you past
Show me your darkest side
And you better be my bloody match
Let's call it love.
It's such a long time
I've wasted such a long time
Been such a long time
I've wasted all my smiling time
All. My. Life. I've. Wait-ted. For. A.
(Rest blocked out by Corin's orgasmic revving)
Let's call it love
My dear, look at my face, I've been waiting for you in the same old place.
I've got a long time for love.
My body is all shook up, like a bottle of pop and I wanna go off.
I've got a long time for love
Lock the door, lock it on up.
I wont let you go until I've had enough.
I've got a long time for love.
One thing, one more thing more before you go.
I've got a long time for love
Slow moves and dirty tricks
Want it like you never have
Timing and tiger strength
Strategy will put you past
Show me your darkest side
And you better be my bloody match
3:08 - 3:40 = so hot
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[02 Jun 2009|10:13pm] |
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today has been positively lovely. Kat and i went to santa cruz, got delicious dinner at saturn, went down to the pier and there was a full rainbow going into the ocean. how perfect. had some fun playing and taking pictures with my holga. hopefully some will come out. Then we just went to tea house spa and now i'm amazingly relaxed. and now watching svu. i'm very content.
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[19 Apr 2009|10:54pm] |
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My puppy dog, Autumn, is dying of an aggressive type of cancer. There's not really anything to be done. She's too old for surgery. I'm going home next weekend to see her, and probably to cry my fuckin' eyes out. I knew this was coming, as she is 14 years old. But, it doesn't make it any easier. She's had a good, long life. Just have to keep telling myself that. I'm going to miss her so much. She's the pet I've had the longest, and definitely bonded with most. *sigh*
to the best dog ever:
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[19 Mar 2009|12:01am] |
ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
people fucking suck.
i want to go live on an island by myself.
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| you know you're high if: |
[12 Nov 2008|11:07pm] |
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you loose your beer in your living room and seriously cannot locate it for a good 5-10 minutes. In all fairness, my living room is a mess right now, but i still feel super special. i am super special.
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| sorry to be a rain cloud but. . . |
[05 Nov 2008|03:59pm] |
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I was ecstatic about all our victories last night. I got misty-eyed, and a bit drunk on champagne. However, my joy is a bit overshadowed today by the reality of prop 8.
This story:
http://www.insidebayarea.com/sanmateocountytimes/ci_10898684
absolutely disgusts me. wtf??? A 35 year old man walks across the street to knock-out a 17 year old girl??? You are a fucking sorry excuse for a human being. I hate San Mateo. I saw the "yes on 8" people yelling and chanting on street corners for the last few weeks and was reminded that though I live right outside the city the people here are NOT of the same mind, and I am in the minority. What really drove that point home was all the people driving by and honking in support of those assholes. Really California, I am profoundly disappointed in you. Writing discrimination into the constitution is a really disgustingly bad president to set. I cannot respect others opinions when they don't respect me enough as a fellow human being to allow me the same rights that they enjoy, even if it does go against their beliefs. In fact, they are so disrespectful that they would write that into the fucking constitution so that it will be that much fucking harder to change. Fuuuuuuuuuck you so hard in your stupid tight wad assholes. I fucking hate you and i hope you die. This issue is so incredibly personal. I realize it's personal to the other side too, but they aren't having their human rights taken away. I don't think I realized just how much this defeat was going to get to me. I knew I'd be upset, but I'm really fucking disheartened. I was listening to the radio this morning, and heard of a man who had been planning to marry his partner, and now that he can't he was so disappointed that he "felt like killing himself he was so depressed." How can people think it's okay to do this to one another? As Larissa said, how would the Christians feel if we were wrote a proposition telling them they could no longer go to church? I don't think they'd be too happy about that. But this damn country is so blinded by religious propaganda that nothing like that would ever happen. Did you know that $20 million was put into the "yes on 8" campaign by the Church of Later Day Saints, in fucking Utah? Unbelievable. This is doing nothing but making me more upset, so I'll stop now. This decision needs to be, and will be, fought. And I will help out in any way I can. But for now, I'm just really disappointed in a state that i thought was a little more enlightened and evolved than this. I'm blaming socal.
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[06 Sep 2008|11:32am] |
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I got an internship with SF camerawork! It starts next Saturday, and goes through December!!
I wanted this so bad, and I was initially passed over. but then this morning I get a call saying the person they picked couldn't come in on Saturdays. . . so, it goes to ME! The woman just talked to me for a few minutes and asked me a few questions, and that was that, come in on Saturday! ohmygod, so excited. It's nice to know that if you sit around sulking and not applying to other internships, sometimes it can work out.
Yaaaaaaaaayy me!
I feel like I'm actually getting started on the right foot this semester. I've got an internship (the one I wanted most), which was my primary goal, and yesterday I secured myself one of the good big lockers down in the basement by the darkroom of which there are few, and I also have a space in the mixed media studio where I can work and keep my stuff. I even get my own key to it and can come and go whenever I want as long as the building is open.
Things are looking up.
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[09 Jun 2008|10:04pm] |
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i'm officially sick. this is awesome timing. thanks body, you couldn't have fought it off for a few more days hmm? i hate you.
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god damn it was hot today. It was 100 in Burlingame, 94 in SF today, and it's still around 82 both places right now, at almost 11:00 at night. It's a no clothes sort of night. i love sitting around in my underwear in this kind of weather. Kat and I went to the park earlier, and we ran through the sprinklers because they were on and it was fucking really hot. It was so much fun though, I got all excited and happy. Last night I was hanging out with Sondra in the city and we went to her friend's house and sat on the back porch until 1 am, in tank-tops. I kept waiting for it to get chilly, and it just didn't. I'm soooo happy to be done with finals. And I'm going to go to bay to breakers for the first time on Sun., hopefully. Anyway, I'm a little drunk from going to dinner and having a giant margarita and now drinking a dos equis. so, this entry doesn't have much point other than, "hey! it's fucking hot!" but, it's cool. hope everyone is doing well. the end.
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[13 May 2008|12:40am] |
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i'm so close to being done i can taste it. this has been the fucking longest week ever ever ever. I feel like I transformed into super-Renee to get alllll that shit done. It was ludicrous. I'm speaking a little soon since i'm not *actually* done with my advanced digital printing final. But, I got most of it done tonight, and i'm really surprised that I was able to do that. I produced 14 prints in. . . 7 hours. that's pretty fucking good. The digital labs have been total madness with finals. And though I was dismayed to find this dude print ricockulously large beyond mural sized prints on the printer I needed to use when I got there this afternoon, he soon left, and then so did everyone else who I was sharing with, and I was super duper stoked. it always works out somehow with finals generally speaking, but this time I really wasn't sure it would. No, seriously, this was the WORST semester of finals I have ever experienced, thanks in large part to me being retarded and procrastinating like an asshole and then going 'oh, fuck, i have a week left of school.' good job me. But, I became super human productivity monster, and worked it the fuck out. oh yeah.
i'm a little crazy now though, in case that wasn't readily apparent, because i've been existing on about 5 hrs. of sleep for oh, i don't even know how many nights now. i lost track of how long this has been going on. all i've done and thought about is school, practically every waking moment. my house is a disaster, i'm a disaster, i need some serious recovery time. i need: to not eat pastries for dinner in the hallway of the lab, to get a full night's sleep, to get a damn haircut before spring show and seeing my parents, to go to the gym and work off the finals flab-o tummy that i've developed. yep. i have to get my work scanned and update my blog for Connie, get my submissions to the spring show together, and of course tomorrow i will finish printing for digital (3 more files to go!) in the a.m., get them matted, do class, and that's IT! I will be free as of wed. afternoon. I will stop ignoring calls and invitations to hang out, and see my friends. yaaaaayyy!! Jess, D, lets hang out soon. yes? Ok, time for me to stop being wired and crash. but, i actually get to have more than 5 hrs. tonight, and that's pretty sweet.
One more thing. . .
Spring Show is happening May 22nd. It's a huge event with work from all the departments in the Academy, and it's pretty cool. I don't know if I'm gonna get anything in this year, though I did last year so I hope so. If anyone is interested in coming and then maybe getting drinking or somethin' after that'd be super cool. i'll let you know if i get anything in. . . but i'm going regardless.
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[06 May 2008|01:36am] |
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i have an interview on thurs. for a job as the photographer for a company that takes people (and by people I mean tourists) on cruises to Alcatraz and Angel Island. I applied on a whim, not because I really wanted this position. But obviously that's who calls back, not the person with the job you actually want. I'm kind of amused, in a this-is-so-pathetic sort of way. But ya know, i do need a job and to make some money. And, it's only seasonal. And, the guy that I talked to on the phone is in my program at the Academy and seemed pretty cool. Who knows, it's just an interview and I might not even get it. It's kind of dependent on how awful the job actually sounds, and how much I'd get paid. It sort of sounds like my own personal hell, telling tourists to "say cheese!" all day. But I'm trying to be at least slightly optimistic that maybe it wouldn't be as bad as I imagine it could be. oh god. why can't i just skip to the part where i'm gainfully employed as a photo professor? or just doing something for work that doesn't totally blow.
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UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Worst finals week ever. I'm soooo behind on every single class, my shit is fucking not together. the problem with this semester is that I had to do my midpoint a month in, and that was so much damn work, that I've been utterly and completely burnt out since then. I feel really scattered because I've been working on my thesis project for so long, but now I'm taking a break and doing a couple new things. Breaks are supposed to be fun, not stressful, right? I started this new project in my pinhole and plastic cameras class too close to the end of the semester, and I didn't have enough time to develop the idea and get the images I want out of it. I just hope that it somehow comes together, because I have one week before I have to turn it in! I don't even know if I have usable, cohesive images, aaahh. I'll develop film tomorrow and find out. I'm scared and nervous. If I don't have anything, that means I'll have to find another location, and non-existent spare time, to take more photographs. Really, doing that is pretty unrealistic so I had better have something useful.
and now, the dreaded list of what I need to do in the next week:
Crossing Borders (Due Sun. May 11th):
*11 pages in terminology journal (stuuuupid assignment)
*Write Xtra credit essay
*Take final
*Read Mod. 14
*Take Mod. 14 quiz
*Post in the discussion
Pinhole and Plastic Cameras (Due Mon. May 12th):
*Develop film (4 rolls)
*Make contact sheets and pick images to print
*Make 5-7 prints, depending how much is worth printing
*cut matts for prints
*write 5 words/ 5 sentences/ then artist's statement
Advanced Digital Printing
*Make a decision on 15 images
*Decide what paper to use, and what size
*Buy paper and screw-post portfolio
*Scan negs.
*Create master files (uuuuggghh, i hate computers)
*Make good prints of all 15 images (i hate digital, and it hates me back. Making prints I find satisfying doesn't happen)
*Put portfolio together
*artist statement?
ohmyfuckingjesuschristonacrutch. how am i going to do all this in a week. . . i really don't know.
oh, and just to make things even better, i got my period tonight. AWESOME!
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god damn it's fucking freezing in my apartment *shivers*
what the hell is with this weather? It was like 85 the other day, now it's like 52. Make up yr damn mind. is it winter or spring? global warming. . .
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| ha aha aha aha oh. . . girl yr just a stupid bitch and boy yr just a no good dick |
[18 Apr 2008|11:25pm] |
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i really am just a twelve year old boy. I still get very much enjoyment out of a good jackass episode. I don't care what anyone says.
the theme of the week is jack daniels. and drinking as much of it as possible. avoiding my homework? I think so!
But, I drove down hwy 1, just south of Half Moon Bay, and hung out on the beautiful beach today. The light was amaaazing, so I took lots of pictures with my Pinholga (Holga made into a Pinhole) of the stormy sky and ocean. Hopefully they come out well. I'm thoroughly enjoying shooting black and white film, developing it myself, and making beautiful black and white darkroom prints on my Kentmere warm-tone fiber paper. Fuck you digital, fuck you so very much.
Supposedly redheads will be extinct by 2100. I'm part of the last of a dying breed. Global warming is going to kill us off along with the Polar bears. So sad.
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Why do I just feel like getting so drunk that I pass out? Hmmm. . .
it's tempting.
my teeth hurt. I probably have cavities or something.
i have yet to figure out what my current fixation on self-destruction is really all about.
at least i still have Jenny Lewis, who I heart so much and also want to bone like mad . . .
This is no great illusion
When I'm with you I'm looking for a ghost
Or invisible reasons
To fall out of love and run screaming from our home
Because we live in a house of mirrors
We see our fears and everything
Our songs, faces, and second hand clothes
But more and more we're suffering
Not nobody, not a thousand beers
Will keep us from feeling so all alone
Jenny Lewis, You are what your love.
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[14 Apr 2008|01:17am] |
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Jack daniels is my best friend right now. i'm such a failure.
haha my little mood bobble is sooo cute. i love how it's cheeks get red. awesome.
aren't you all so fucking glad that I enriched your lives with this post.
yeah.
i thought so.
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| Kate Moss doesn't have a pussy. She didn't feed it, and it died |
[16 Mar 2008|12:04pm] |
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Kat and I had the pleasure of seeing Margaret CHO at the warfield last night. She definitely did not disappoint at all! I laughed the entire time, and it was fucking awesome. I think the crowd was about 90% queer. There was this older woman, like maybe in her early 60s, sitting next to me, and she was laughing just as hard as us at everything. I thought she was amazing. I was trying to imagine my mom laughing at Margaret Cho talking about cock that was too big to suck, and how pussy can make your eyes water and gay men have flawless dick and a light shines out of their crotch when they unzip, and she'd love to suck it but they won't let her. I just can't imagine my mother finding that funny. haha. She'd probably walk out or something. But kudos to that lady. She also said that she loves having sex with women. She was like if you haven't slept with a woman yet, you should try it, even gay men, try it, just once. The gay men were like: silence. She was talking about how she identifies as "queer" and she's been married, to a man, for several years. But, she says that the secret to a happy marriage is to sleep with lots of other people. "It takes a village. . ." Liam Sullivan Kelly opened for her, which was totally amazing too. Performed the "shoes" song, and a song about double-ended dildos while dressed as the lesbian aunt, and then played 2 videos. The best video was the one with the family and "let me borrow that top" song. Actually, the first opener was M. Cho dressed all gangsta with a wig and puffy jacket and some other girl with a shirt on that said "lez" who was supposed to be her lesbian lover. They did a rap song about pussy, that was along the lines of a yr mama joke, except it was yr pussy jokes. She also ended with a song, which was also about pussy and getting head. she's rather pussy/vag obsessed. She's pretty much one of my favorite people ever. Also got a free super rad poster by the dude that made the posters of Jack and Meg White where their faces are made out of all kinds of 3 dimensional objects, and they have the originals by the staircase in the Warfield. Anyway, I was super stoked because they're super nice posters and I'm surprised that they were just handing them out for free. Overall, a very good, happy show experience.
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| in case i didn't have enough online blog type bullshit. . . |
[11 Mar 2008|09:21pm] |
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my teacher wants us to keep a blog for her class, pinhole and plastic cameras.
So, yet another god-damn blog to maintain.
anyway, it will have all the work i'm doing this semester posted on it. there's new stuff up already, if you're interested:
http://theprocessofmemory.blogspot.com/
i'm getting sick. blarrrrgh.
p.s. thanks to everyone who gave me their congratulations on my passing the mid-point. It feels damn good to be done with that, i must say. and actually, i'm on spring break now since i only have class mon. and tues., even though it officially starts next week. i have a shit load of work to do over this supposed break, however. But i'm glad none the less. i'm going home for a little while because there are several abandoned houses i must explore around paso/slo. but before home, there's margaret cho on the 15th, fuck yes.
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